N S R

52 days.

2009-12-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

allah take the wheel.

2009-11-17T22:49:00.014+08:00

10.02.2010

keep smiling keep shining, knowing you can always count on me, for sure.

2009-11-17T22:49:00.009+08:00

The people who mind, dont matter
the people who matter, dont mind.

maybe its a good thing im going australia

2009-11-15T11:36:00.006+08:00

please have some soul in you.

2009-11-09T19:06:00.004+08:00

i dont like people who complain and complain and at the end of the day do nothing to make the situation any better. i dont like people who think highly of themselves, especially those who uses' money as a defense, i think its so shallow. i dont favour people who think lowly of other people because of their colour i think its wrong and its mean. i dont like people who like to blame other people just because they dont want to tarnish their name, when a matter of fact, they are just too coward to reason their actions. i dont like people who are so calculative because if you dont like to share, you will gain nothing in the end. i dont like people who are not sincere, if you dont want to do something just dont. may god bless you.

life's experiences

2009-11-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

know who your friends are.

Youre the cat i fear.

2009-11-04T21:45:00.015+08:00

because if you wish to stay to watch the show, you better jolly well stay until the end of the show. i have issues with myself, so if you wanna hang around me often, make sure your patient enough.
why cant you speak nicely, why must you raise your voice. Like a mouse ill be, quiet and gone, back to my mouse hole.

disparaître

2009-10-22T23:27:00.004+08:00

somethimes you just wanna fade away.

diwali.

2009-10-17T23:49:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Umah!

Happy Diwali Umah + Gayu

Her name is Umah. It's her house.
It was her birthday too on deepavali !

my indian boy

no lah it's not his birthday, was a belated birthday cake for wakyah.
its not really a cake actually, its like a huge banana tart with loads of cream on it.
nah, i'm not really a sweet tooth person.

dermatology clinic

2009-10-16T00:52:00.004+08:00

skin is the largest organ on your body.

(500) days of summer

2009-10-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

beautiful sunday

2009-10-11T12:53:00.006+08:00

happy birthday wakyah!
congratulations to wan and ainon on their engagement!

I got a new job, or shall I say I got transfered to a Dermatology Clinic. So that means my weekends are free ! Yeeey Me! However, this two weeks might be a little tight because my kids are having exams so I need to prioritize them.

XXX

solution to one of my problems.

2009-10-07T22:37:00.007+08:00

#1 YOU WANT TO BE MY FRIEND, BE MY FRIEND. I AM ME AND I CANT F CHANGE THE WAY I AM.

This is how I speak, this is how I behave, this is how I react. This is just me.
The life that I went through made me, me. the girl that is standing infront of you today.

i know im just this little nobody who stays at pioneer north, which to many I may not be that important. but i know very well that deep inside my heart, I know I matter to some people, who is able to accept me for who I am. People who genuinely care. and i secretly thank god that i have them in my life. They know who they are, I dont even have to even mention their names. because I am in their hearts, like they are in mine.

XXGX said this to me "CAN YOU F STOP EXPECTING AND START ACCEPTING".
now i understand where that statement is coming from.
you can never demand a person to act the way they should. the reason why a person behaves in such a manner, because they are just them, and that is how they will react to situations.

For example, some people make a certain sound when they sip their soup. to some, its rude. while others just feel its the way they express their appreciation. Allow me to quote britney's song, she sang " There are two types of people in the world, the ones that entertain and the one that observe". which is true. some people are born to entertain. some people are born to be the quiet one. some are born to be good listeners. etc which makes everyone out there unique individuals. everyone have different, different traits. my best friend XZXX once said, " im hostile" so what if i am. which comes to my point.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY. I AM ME. I CANNOT AND I DO NOT WANT TO CHANGE THE WAY I AM. I AM ME AND YOU NEED TO UNDERSTAND THAT.
if there is so much you want to complain about me, you can go to this website http://www.insult-si-sarah.com/ (okie ths is just a joke). i cannot jage your hati anymore. if you are a friend, you should understand that i am just being me. if its too much to ask for, then i hope and pray that you will meet someone better.

all my closest best friends dont require me to update myself to them.
we hang out when we have the time, we talk when we have the time, if not, we are buzy with our own seperate life. because we have a life. thats why we are living; L I F E, L I V I N G, make sense? but once we are together, we are the happiest people on the planet. they like my company, i like their company. full stop nothing to complain. sometimes we have our issues la but nothing so big that we cant handle it. so please dont have obligations, i want to be friends nothing more nothing less. sometimes it can get more (hehe) but, but i just want to be with me, myself and I. and not in a ~~boyfriendgirlfriendiloveyouyouloveme~~ relationship. and no, im not giving anyone hopes either.

which...... leads to issue number two

#`2
once upon a time, during early feb 2009, XIXX said this to me,

" IF YOU CANT STAND ON YOUR OWN, HOW CAN YOU EVEN BE IN A RELATIONSHIP".
for your best friend to say this, I was hurt. but then again, its a fact, like it or not. it made alot of sense, because relationship is not a place where you can just clinge to someone. Im a hopeless romantic and with two failed relationship it seems that i cant say much about relationships. but one thing im sure of, everyone needs to be independent. you need to take care of yourself, then you can take care of another person. If you have issues with yourself, solve them and not find fault in others. so dont f push me. there are reasons to why i dont wanna get involved. there are so many million girls out there. save me all that you have to complain about me. and find someone that matches your criteria.

i will be a friend for as long as you want me to be. im just a phonecall away. but if im not worthy enough to be your friend, save that phonecard. save earth. understand me better?

im just tired of complains. if life dont go the way you planned it, so what, maybe there are reason why. kite boleh rancang but Allah swt yang tetapkan. in english it means, we can only plan but God makes them happen. Be positive. there are so many things to look out for. LIKE, JALAN RAYA THIS SATURDAY! yippy.
LIKE HOW SHORT I AM, THAT'S LIFE TOO. LIFE'S SHORT, BE HAPPY.

in the end, you still know you love me, XOXO.

yeeey me! :)

2009-10-06T17:51:00.002+08:00

one problem down.

SCHOOL IS SETTLED.

thank you dear God. everything went smoothly. alhamdulilah.

eh eh

2009-10-02T12:51:00.002+08:00

there nothing else i can say

BE RIGHT BACK!

2009-09-24T20:56:00.004+08:00

(busy)

i went out with an officer

2009-09-21T13:14:00.001+08:00

@ St. Regis, Singapore.

7408 Cadence Comms Ball

Eighteen of September two thousand and nine

eid mubarak

2009-09-20T11:11:00.002+08:00

all of you are invited to my house today!

im so proud of you

2009-09-12T01:15:00.003+08:00

M F B G
de` commissioning parade -12 september 2009

i cut my hair today

2009-09-11T01:08:00.000+08:00

slap me not.

last day of mandarin class

2009-09-10T00:48:00.002+08:00

i cooked mac and cheese today (rachael ray style ey lina;)

its so easy to make : butter, normal flour, milk, salt pepper, dijon mustard and chedder cheese.

buke di rumah bfffl-lina. lina has a very lovely and hilarious family i tell you!

so after buke, we' set off to our final ~~destination~~ mandarin class held @ bukit batok CC.

http://one.pa.gov.sg/CRMSPortal/CRMSPortal.portal

Certs are given, but its upon request only. its good to know a little mandarin in singapore.

After which, we went to one of my many favourite place on earth : TIMEZONE.

and i played Guitar Heros'. first time and the first song was; black magic woman. hehe.

and everyfucking one of you should play this game. its fun:)

cheers`

my version of kuih dahlia

2009-09-09T06:40:00.003+08:00

12am face.

buat kuih sambil nonton cerita hantu in the middle of the night.

the recipe

and btw, FYI, 1 oz is 30g

playboy! hehehe

~~four~~ five leaf clover.

eat this and you will be lucky all year round !

padahal its just a flower.

finished baking at 0120 hours.

penat deh`

okay so thats the last of my off days. now until hari raya my schedule is packed!

i hope there's time to clean my room

gambar belen belen from my camera phone

syaz's cake before frosting.

so black and ugly !

so we have to add a little more flavour and colour and shine.

melt those chcolate with some milk or cream.

i used the droste holland chocolate for the milk chocolate coating

and nestle for the white chocolate for the wordings

and hershey's kisses for decoration.

made with love.

okay baking days are over. at least for now.

J's gonna go ns tommorow :(

cheers`

happy belated 21st birthday syaz!

2009-09-08T19:48:00.007+08:00

29 Aug - happy birthday nur syazwani mokhtar !

7 sept - happy birthday umi !

hello kawan kawan!

i bake this.
i still dont understand why syaz said its cute.
but lucky for me, its edible. thankgod.

at the famous bowling alley of e-hub -down town east.

the floor is good, the place is huge enough, ~~the balls are delicious~~ they have a good range of bowling balls, and they even have a theme to choose from.
and the group beside us was a group of boys. heh. what more can we ask for.

one person is $5.70 (on a weekend) good enough for me.

syazz is syazwani,

honeyy is hanani ,

rose is ME (you should know why)

lynn is lina,

timang is faTIMAh. HAHAHAH

and guess who is the winner with the score of 113.

;)

i look nice here.

the restaurant is called HEI SUSHI.

http://www.singaporehalaldirectory.com/CompanyProfile_MG.aspx?DirID=76&cocode=80095265&coname=HEI%2BSUSHI

the first ever halal japanese restaurant which has a conveyorbelt for their sushi to go round and round and round and round and round, when will they stop nobody knows.

normal plate is $2.18

red plate is $6.88

we got a discount because we are cute. no really really we got 10% off.

then we went airport to have ice cream at swensens.

cheers`

:(

2009-09-07T22:24:00.008+08:00

you treat me as if im made of stone. because i always seem to appear strong.
you will never know because i cry only silently.

im sick of this im so fucking sick of this.

2009-09-04T05:45:00.008+08:00

i dont want to just exsist, i want to live.

im a smart person, what the hell was i thinking?

2009-08-31T01:08:00.009+08:00

then again, i wasnt thinking.

i was browsing through my old old pictures and im like HOLY COW! I DID THAT ?!

looking through images of my years of growing up, i was quite a crazy person.
but now im older and wiser, trust me i know better.

cheers`

happy 21st birthday H !

2009-08-19T06:31:00.000+08:00

19 August - Happy birthday Haris!

when someone gives you a present wrapped nicely as this one above, appreciate it. because alot of effort has been put into creating such a piece of art.

birthday boy
may god bless him with good health and happiness.
and may he be a little fairer. hehe ( im just kidding)

cheers`

I am just dating.

2009-08-17T00:42:00.006+08:00

Dating is more casual than seeing someone. Seeing someone suggests that there is a relationship either beginning or in progress that is exclusive. You can date several people, but when you declare that you are seeing someone, it's a declaration of a commitment.

quote from:
http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_difference_between_dating_and_seeing_someone

so anymore questions?

luqman brought me back to life

2009-08-16T00:27:00.004+08:00

we went to have our dinner at sushi tea at taka's.

http://www.sushitei.com.sg/

we had sashmi 3 pieces of salmon, tuna and yellowtail fish, & softshellcrab sushi with roe, & raw scallop white sushi, & grilled squid with that black sauce, plus green tea and he had coke.

With every piece of food that went down my throat, I just felt pleasure.

then we met hanani, and the rest of the peeps for Mei Yin's Early 20th Birthday. Happy Birthday Mei Yin! I miss Hanani. I enjoyed Luqman's company today. I miss being LOUD.

prove to me there is such a thing called love`

2009-08-13T00:37:00.003+08:00

Hari ini aku nonton cerita bertajuk 'love'. ceritanya romantis bangat dan kisah ceritanya bener bener mengharukan. and it kept me thinking. begitulah cinta, iya datang dan pergi tanpa kita sadari, cinta yang telah lama dicari dan dinanti tiba tiba datang kedasar lubuk hati.

cupcake-mania !

2009-08-12T02:20:00.003+08:00

in comparison to the cupcakes i made 2 years ago, this one was ten times better.

the best part, azie and me made up our own recipe. (giggle)

dry ingredients; 2 & 1/4 cup flour + 1 & 1/3 cup of sugar, 1 tsp baking powder, 1 tsp salt

wet ingredients; 175g butter, 2 eggs, 1 tsp vanilla essence, butterscotch flavouring, 1/4 cup milk, some chocolatechip (hershey's)

others; cupcake tray, cupcake paper, a tin box and a whole lot` of TLC! ;)
Icing; is just egg white (whisk until fluffy) then, add confectionary sugar. add food colouring to your liking.

azie's mom said : sedap not bad
redzuan said : mmmm sedap
lina bfffl said : sedap (but she keep feeding me my own cupcake, hmmmm)
farhan marceles said: sedap nak lagi
haris said: sedapppppp
haris's aunt said: sedap
haris' adik said : delicious

In conclusion, sedap la tu :)

*

OH OH OH !!! Please watch the movie THE HANGOVER. fucking hilarious. 5 out of 5
and THE ORPHAN. unexpected ending. the entire cast was perfect. there's a cute baby which will make you go AWWWW half the time. 4 out of 5

cheers`

NUH

2009-08-11T02:13:00.002+08:00

my new job.

happy 44th Birthday Singapore!

2009-08-09T02:19:00.003+08:00

i was working today. double pay.

but despite that, I still recite the pledge at 8.22pm. ;)

i had to ask that question.

2009-08-08T02:18:00.002+08:00

kenduri

belated birthday.

2009-08-06T02:14:00.004+08:00

zul took me out to dinner at holland village at my favourite El Paito Mexican Restaurant.
He said," kau makan banyak jugak eh".(which means: you do eat alot) -_-" how can you say that to a girl. ccb

After that, since we got no plans, zul nak mabuk while having our late night karaoke at our usual place. it was fun. thanks for the treat Z.

my 21st birthday

2009-08-03T01:40:00.007+08:00

i was planning a quiet dinner with some- to be exact, four of my closest friends at indochine because i want to have that nice cesar salad for my birthday. that's all. quiet and simple. but this is what actually happen...

first and foremost, thank you azie for the balloon :)

the princess.

the girls.
(left to right) Lina, Me, Syaz, Fatimah, Hanani, Azie

the boy.

the boyS.
(left to right) Redzuan, Johnathan, Me, Luqman

best friends.
Hanani 3 years relationship.
Azie 6 years relationship.

i got my cake, i got my balloon, i got my friends.
:D

Hanani's Gift :)

These are from Redzuan, Syaz,Fatimah and bfffl-Lina.
;)

then off to Arab Street...

Azie's Gift ;)

Aza+Ifah's Gift

who dosent love MOK. abang eri

Royce Chocolate from Ikram! abang Ikram

them!

(left to right) Fred, Ikram, Azie, Khairi, Me, Haris

Haris's Gift ! :)

from ......... shh

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE GIFTS !

lunch with my mummy.

dinner with daddy.

1 August 2009:

4pm: Azie was on the phone with me while I got ready.

6pm: Hanani called to asked if im already out.

At this point, I was like okay thank god both my best friends are gonna be there with me on my counting down to my twenty first birthday celebration.

7pm: H picked me up at about 7 in the evening, everything seemed normal, i checked my watch just to make sure that we will reach out designated place on time. on the way, Haris said he needed to make a pit-stop before dinner. I'm thinking why the fuck is he making it any harder for me, da la my bfffl Lina's not gonna be there, Syaz even ask me to drop by her workplace on my bloody birthday.

But of course I said okay, so Haris turn in to Demsy Road. We always pass by this place but never gone up. Haris said, I've never been here. I was thinking so fucking what no one asked you to be here. He parked. I didnt wanna take out anything from the box, he said come take your purse. Being obedient that I am, I took it, took out my handphone and pray that everyone will not reach indochine earlier than me.
*

8pm: Haris walked me in to LONG BEACH SEAFOOD RESTAURANT thru the kitchen's entrance. He was making some phone calls, and I overheard "korang kat maner" (means : where are all of you). I was thinking what the fuck man, you can meet your friends some other time what.

Then, he forced me to enter the indoor part of the restaurant. I saw a nice big pink balloon. I looked away, thinking pfff i want that one. Then, I looked up again, I saw Azie, Then I saw John beside her, I saw Luqman, LINAAAAAAAAA and syaz and Fatimah and Redzuan and Hanani !

Everyone was there. Everyone whom I want them to be there, was there!

I was so very f embarrassed.

I'm thinking , how did haris contact with lina and how azie contact with hanani and how did the fuck everyone know everyone. I was the happiest girl in the planet, you have no idea.

because I told hanani, i think i told azie too, the best birthday would be having all my close friends with me, all of them one shot together. THIS YEAR MY WISH CAME TRUE :)

the food was super. sorry it was a little expensive guys, i really appreciate it.

There was my friends. And there was my balloon. And there was my cake.

What fucking more can you ask for!

11pm: After which, we went to arab street, to Nasrin Restaurant to smoke some ~~weed~~ sheesha. double apple coming right up. There was Khairi, my fake brother-Ikram, Fred, Aza+Iffah, Farhan, Ariff , Azie and Haris.

3am: I went home at three in the morning. I was a one very happy adult.

2 August 2009:

10am: I woke up I got a morning text from my beloved Azie saying "good morning, happy birthday princess". hehehe suke aku.

2pm: I met my mummy and abang for lunch @ Naked Fish Restaurant. I had this pastry stuff with salmon and prawn with some cream sauce. SEDAP!

5pm: Next, abang and me went to Somerset, to Cinelesuire.

It's a tradition my abang and me would play arcade on my birthday ! :)

we took neoprint together weeeeeeeeee
*

Soon, it was about 5 plus 6 so we make our way to Marriot Hotel to meet our daddy.

6pm: Reservation was made for three. The food was delicious. The amount of food was just nice. The spread was lovely. The waiter who took care of our table was very attentive making his service splendid! I enjoyed the dinner very very much!

Daddy give me Roxy Bear and Roxy Perfume, along with the cream and shower gel because he said Roxy sounds like Rosli -_-"

Abang and his gf, thressa gave me a $25 x 2 = $50 Forever 21 Voucher. hehhe how cute. Forever 21.

The Best Way To Turn 21.

Thank You Everyone for making this happen.

Pictures are all from syaz and azie's and Iffaah's Camera. For more pictures, log in to Facebook, Thankyou.

18 points.

2009-07-31T01:37:00.000+08:00

don't think too much just do.

Hiatus.

2009-07-29T20:21:00.000+08:00

Will be back when I feel like it.

the leo babies

2009-07-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

27 July : Happy Birthday Aruna!

29 July: Happy Birthday Sam !

XoXo

Botanical Gardens

2009-07-23T12:48:00.004+08:00

what a beautiful day..

obsessed

2009-07-22T01:09:00.004+08:00

i like beyonce, so 3 out of 5.

this movie is good for couples.

so guys, dont say " it's nothing " when there is something. even though, yes, we girls know that it's no big deal, but we, girls do want to hear about your ~~most of the time boring~~ life too.

and if there is really something, but you didnt do anything wrong, dont be guilty. why should you? when initially you were the one who said its not big deal.

so its a big deal after all ey?

and....

if you want something to work, you will find ways to fix things. if not, its clear.

nab's 21st

2009-07-21T01:33:00.004+08:00

the avon advertisment.

lovely peah, jannaah and myself

she's my best friend, best friend of all best friend,

you can be my best friend too

evidence that peah dont know how to sleep.

Happy Belated 21st Birthday Nabs!

shattered dreams

2009-07-20T14:51:00.007+08:00

to one it's own. im not perfect, at least i try to be but i cant. that is how god made us.

i wont deny, im no angel. i dare to dream, i am willing to give it a go, i may do things that might dissapoint you because this way i'll learn- because your not there to teach me, i have to fall to learn that i have to stand up on my own. you were never there and even now, your not even trying to be there. dont shape the clouds just to learn that it will rain.

the only reason for all this, is just that you just dont think im worth the investment. what makes you think i cant achieve higher? which part of me that i am unable?

in every journey you embark, does not neccesary ensure that you will reach to your destination. there are risks involved. but when you have made a decision, and know in my your heart that you are able, and you know that you are capable, I dont see why should i hesitate any further?

dont give me high hopes when you're gonna shatter my dreams in the end.'

dont worry, i will make this happen for me. i will, watch me.

choices in life.

2009-07-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

with every decision i make, it's not necessary a good decision, but it's the best decision for me.

in the morning, i went swimming because i wanted to clear my head.

it didnt help actually, somehow i managed to just turn darker and my body temperature got slightly higher because i spent approx 2 hours in the pool under the hot noon sun.

then i got home had a quick lunch. and finish up my indonesian sinatron.

evening was dinner at east coast park with H's family.

cheers`

harry potter and the half blood prince

2009-07-16T01:25:00.002+08:00

after mandarin class, Z, R, L and myself decided to find out WHO IS ACTUALLY THE HALF BLOOD PRINCE.

2 and a half hour movie. i love harry potter so, 3 out of 5.

finally! its thursday. tommorow is already friday.
cheers`

i have fever today-day.

2009-07-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

today i met aruna and kiks for lunch at fig and olive and ben and jerry's. then i went to return my uniform, they're gonna give my pay next month only asshole. then i met azie. azie and me suppose to buy nabs birthday present and find a XS size hairstraightener, buy a scrub soap but we end up snuggling @ orchard central. lazy cute girls we are.

cheers`

cupid

2009-07-13T20:50:00.016+08:00

whats the big deal puting your friend's picture as your wallpaper?

this august edition of seventeen magazine has a section where some ladies nominated their boyfriend and telling us readers why their boyfriends are the best (im rolling my eye),

and how to spot if a boyfriend is a keeper or just a ~~fucker~~ liar

please allow me to quote this guy, he said;

" A great boyfriend is one whose actions speak louder than words. If you're with a guy who constantly breaks his promises or keeps telling you he loves you but acts as though he dosent, then he's not worth the effort! "

this is very true`

insomia

2009-07-12T05:30:00.011+08:00

this is what happen when you sleep too much in a day. the time was 0445 and we are still WIDE AWAKE. lucky for me there's my bfffl to accompany me all the way. thank you :)

so when they say your suppose to sleep 8 hours a day, please abide by them. okay if anyone suffers from one-day insomia this is what you can do,

please dont quote me im not a medical doctor but based on experience

1) the moment that you wake up from your sleep, the moment you open your eyes, get up. dont sleep in. go shower
.

2) meet a friend to go somewhere that requires a hell'lot of walking for example; botanical gardens, or zoo (these places have underwent renovation, even if you say "aiya i've been there before what", but there has been alot of changes) remember, its not where you go, but who you go with ;)
.

3) have a light lunch brunch snack together
.

4) then in the evening, do a sport. for exampe; cycling for at least one hour, or you can go swimming, or jogging. ONE HOUR VIGOUROUS SPORT.
.

5) have a nice dinner
.

6) on the way home, talk to a friend. better still, to that special friend.
.

7) once you get home, shower blah blah blah, ON the tv.
.

8) you will dooze off. you will.

the next day, do not sleep in. Again, sleep only for 8 hours. thats that.

because if you continue sleeping in, you will be a very lazy person. and thats not good.

k! goodnight~

ferrysyah's sweet 16!

2009-07-11T00:00:00.006+08:00

look at her birthday cake, or should i say muffins.

but i think the icing is so too damn sweet

how adorable. it was a surprise birthday bashy. she didnt know we planned this after she come home from tuition, boy, was she shocked! it was a pink birthday. it was funnnnn! :)
i love my family. today i officially miss H.

bummer

2009-07-10T11:09:00.007+08:00

my fourth day of being a bummer. it sure feels good.

first time in my life i have zero commitment. i have nothing to worry about. nothing to be afraid not to be done. and because my life is sorta complete i am able to sleep well at night :) if im unable there's always azie, or lina, or H so yeah its so good to have the world in your hands.

i can take my little red schedule book and throw. hehe.

R said this after July your weight will be the same as mine, staying at home makes you fat.

i told him, " we shall see, im discipline enough"

oh come on. i so deserve this break. i've been working all my life, ive been doing all the planning. so for once, im done. im gonna sit and do nothing besides shaking ma legs.

yesterday i tried studying chemistry, im only on the 10th page because i snooze off in between. its been a f* long time since I used my brain. oh well im not gonna give up.

if its chemistry im suppose to study, then chemistry i shall study!

time for a swim!

okay i better quit bragging how very free i am. bye bye enjoy your day!

im cleaning my room, its 12.26am

2009-07-09T00:20:00.011+08:00

the time has come to clean my room. its always the odd time to do it but thats always the case. my room needs to be clean, my grandmother taught me that. She used to say that im good at cleaning and that i took that part of her gene.

today i found yet another friend who is smitten. so now in my life, i have a total of two friends who are on the verge of falling in love. so because aku kan a very feeling person, aku pun sebok want to have this feeling too. and i wanna say this to azie yet again, " I WIN ".

today i found an old friend again.
the other day i found azie back in my life because she realized that im not hostile and that she just misses me and just finding excuses to be angry but because she simply miss me.
and today i found aruna back in my life. Reminiscing is fun it makes you giggle even harder.

today someone whom im close with had a misunderstanding again. im not that shallow to use you lah. why would i want to use you. what kind of person do you think i am.
haiz dear god bless shine some light.

today finally, i took out my things from my shopping bag,
when did i go shopping? if you scroll down to archive its last saturday which is 4th. Today's the 9th. So, I just wanna say that i dont have time for myself as well, im trying my hardest to accomadate to everyone. i still longed to have my me-time alone.

today after cleaning my room, I found a pair of black shoes, so anyone of size 4 and half desperate for a free pair of black shoes you can so have it, its new btw never worn before.

today ~~actually not really today lah~~, i got my FULL offer letter from Monash Uni.
cepat la sikit UWA i need to settle my hostle accomadation and visa and everything else.

so i have quit mng DONE, i bought a new phone DONE, sent H off to NS DONE, sent Sam off at e airport DONE.
i want to make time okay please dont make it any harder for me.

Bon Voyage SAM 8 July

2009-07-08T19:35:00.001+08:00

I reached airport at about 730am or so, to send samantha nitypunita gunaraj off.

this was it man, her moment of truth. i dont know how she does it, done without a drop of tear.

brave little samantha. goodluck man! all the best babe!

after which me and aruna reminisce about everything.

we've are the bestest best best friends ever.

no doubt la, we have the fuck-you-i-hate-you moments dring class, or fyp or etc , but that didnt kill our relationship ever at all, because we complement each other's personality (aruna said this)

i've been giving so many hugs to everyone lately, especially this week.

cheers`

h a r a s (this is my name backwards)

comfort food

2009-07-07T22:40:00.006+08:00

just in case i cannot sleep tonight.

H goes NS..................... cb

2009-07-07T01:04:00.004+08:00

5th July Sunday: family dinner

there's his mother, his aunt, his uncle- they are so down to earth.

supposed to meet with zul and hanani but sorry guys, family comes first.

zul said "eh kau nak be part of everyone's family is it?"

they asked me to tag along not my fault.

we went to this bali restaurant somewhere at bukit timah area there. the restaurant can only accomadate only like 20pax. so imagine how nice and peaceful the ambiance was. we had fish, prawn, sotong, rendang-(H's favourite food) and for dessert as always banana fritters with ice cream along with coffee.

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6th July Monday:
first of all i wanna say this to azie, I WIN!!

i eat alot today laksa, honey stars, cough syrup, lasagna, meebandung, tehtarik icecream and a hellot of love. hugs ~~and kisses~~

*
argh! 10 fucking days. today is mango pay day im suppose to be very happy but im not. i miss you already lehhhhhhh :(

say goodbye to starhub and hello singtel !

2009-07-05T01:21:00.000+08:00

i have changed my number.

please come and update.

today is my last day of shopping

2009-07-04T01:19:00.005+08:00

H and I went to watch Transformers 2.

its 2 out of 5.

look at us, we are holding hands ;)

2009-07-02T01:33:00.006+08:00

1 July: Happy Birthday KinMeng!

technically he is two years younger than me, but in my heart we are the same age.

you know the best part about him, he's so freaking hot yet he dont think its a big deal.
and i like the fact the he is so active, not just by looking at his body physically but his attitude.

@ SMU for 3 days

2009-07-01T01:11:00.005+08:00

i drew this, because day one at smu there were too much free time. im quite an artist arent i?

three days in a row i was at SMU. the allocated room we're at is so damn fucking cold.

i was so cold inside out, and i was wearing three layers can you imagine and i still feel the chill ! i dont understand how my collegues can still have iced tea instead of hot tea.

i wore leggings before i wore my jeans and i wore long sleeve after the fujitsu uniform and a jacket after. it was a really fucking cold and long day.

all i need now is a hot hot cup of earl grey, my blanket and a warm hug from......

wen's 21st birthday

2009-06-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

we didnt know wen had a sister. we didnt know wen's sister is studing in rp. we didnt know she lived at yishun. we didnt know she's 21 too. we didnt know that this was a belated birthday party. BUT it was a lovely lovely party with lovely lovely people :)

i had alot of bbq prawns. and i did not have any allergic reaction. I had fun

cheers`

yet another offer

2009-06-25T00:22:00.001+08:00

i recieved a call from Bond University today, offering me Forensic Science giving me 12 credit point exemptions, next intake is september. I dont know but accreditation to me is very important. if you want to be the best you need to be surrounded with the best.

http://www.webometrics.info/rank_by_country.asp?country=au

cheers`

give me a break

2009-06-20T23:34:00.001+08:00

in e morning i went swimming because

number 1: AA cancel her plans with me. whats new. pfff!

number 2 : because umi called people to clean our house, so, because of that, i hafta wake my fat ass up and shower.

sumpah tak iklas because its my off day and i want to sleep in. is that selfish? nope i dont think so either.

number 3 : i need to clear my head. swimming makes me calm especially when the morning sun hits the water its so beautiful too look under, it feels fresh and light, makes you feel at peace.

and when i got home i thought the cleaning is all done, but no. in fact this auntie gave me THAT look. come on its a swim suit and its one piece im not naked. chilllax. i dont want to play the judging game no more so you can judge all you want. im not perfect so im not gonna look at someone and judge. i just dont care anymore. i am gonna live my life the way i want to live my life. im sick of the "perempuan kene bagun pagi, perempuan kene this this this crap.

im not really a girl anyway. (giggle) - self joke

okay then, just as i was about to see whats in store for me in the fridge - i was looking for ice cream to be specific SKALI one of the buble tea pineapple drink spilled dey! spill out from the bloody cup. then once again, everyone became noisy blahblahblah everyone wants to clean the mess so i just wash my feet and walk away. i want to clean up my mess but all of you want to volunteer what. so go ahead. after that dont complain that im lazy.

i knew i needed to bathe and go out. its the day of life when you are actually not needed at home.

too many people in my house because my cousins and aunt datang untuk sleepover they are from batam one of the parts of indonesia tapi bahasa nya ngak bergitu enak didengarin. for two nights. pfff!

7pm date with H.

we're suppose to watch this movie but all the couple seat taken up HAHAHAH YA RIGHT 740 show left first row who wants that. and i cannot go back home late because you know why...

so anyway we went banquet at JP,

and now they had to use the the banquet card and i asked this kakak

" kak now must use the card eh "

" ah ah "

" nah take this form fill it up, $5 tau application "

" oh okay "

(i was filling up the form)

" awak ni campuran eh"

" tak la saya biase je"

" oh lawa eh kulit macam jepun. untung la kau"

H was smiling la obviously.

" so ni da rumah tangga eh "

" ish takde la kak blum lagi "

turning her head to H, " baik naik pelamin cepat cepat, nanti orang ambek rugi kau"

H kept smililng.

we are just close friends. we like each other's company thats all.

yes. and im single. i dont have a boyfriend.

now is not the time for all that.

im exhausted balls! ENOUGH i said

2009-06-19T23:56:00.007+08:00

im very tired! projects after projects. clients after clients. more meetings after that.

aku seriously need a break from all this. time out.

I NEED A FUCKING BREAK.

tobby sudah jadi abang abang

2009-06-16T00:46:00.003+08:00

look at tobby my baby boy. and look at my bestest best friend forever for life (BFFFL) there!

oh btw, finally today my grandfather talked to me. peewww.

cheers`

the topi keledar day

2009-06-15T00:00:00.003+08:00

H sms " nanti pukul brape

I sms" nak pukul siape ape

H sms" kan kite kluar ?

bile masa tah aku janji

I sms" okok but i hafta be back by 12. aku cinderella

H sms" i know. da i already promised atuk - he told me to sent you by 12

after tuition...

H said" topi keladar nya udah pasang belum?

I said" what the hell is that

H said" topi keladar pun tak tau, your malay sucks!

I said" whatever ah B4 !!!!!

anyways, like duh where else would we go but hollandvillage right

we had Secret Recipe. http://www.secretrecipe.com.sg/

I forced H to try the famous- Lamb, Green Apple Kasturi Juice and Banana chocolate cake. along with earl grey tea and mushroom soup.

I asked H, so was the lamb nice? (dengan suara step cute sebab it cost us 45 bucks so divide by 2 one person about 20 bucks sia EXPENSIVE!!)

H said, sedap sedap ( i dont know why he must repeat? say sedap one time can already right)

Then,

H said" da kenyang nak pergi mane

I said" mane aku tau (after passing the same caltex for the third time)

H said" kau nak main bowling ke pool ke ape

I said, id rather watch that movie

And so we watched THAT movie: Ghost of Girlfriend's Past

2 out of 5. So-So lah.

And H sent me home before 12am as promised.

I said " thanks

he said " anytime

good :)

i went home too late today.

2009-06-14T11:49:00.009+08:00

8 June: Happy birthday Johnathn Chng!

I watched a very late night movie with bimbs: DRAG ME TO HELL

this is a MUST WATCH movie. im serious. 4 out of 5

Eventhough he was drove me back before the sun got up, today is the day my grandfather is officially merajuk with me. merajuk means sen-qi. sen-qi means upset.

----------------------------------------------------------------------

Im so tired working. I have no time to entertain petty people.
i am becoming more practical and ignorant.
I dont understand people's mouth sometimes.
Filter the words that are coming out of your mouth so that it wont hurt other people. I can be a very patient person but there are boundaries. Try one more time girl. ill show you the other side of me.
Stop the ungkit-ing. Move on from the f* past. Its the future we have to look forward to.
kalau tak suke cakap. wonder why god created somthing call a mouth?
now i know who will be there to send me to the airport at 3 a.m.
now i know who to call when i needed someone.
H needs to promise me that we need to be back before 12 the next time we go out.
i need my own set of keys
next week i have to behave. no more late nights.

oh well. hidup orang tompang.

cheers`

Izzi sudah tunang

2009-06-07T01:15:00.000+08:00

congratulations Izziana and wandy!

left to right.
ain. dee. asilah. aini. nurul. peah. adik peah. nab. azie. jannah. sarah.

nurul ! :):):)

all pictures were from Azie's camera.

cheers`

the longest day of my life, ever.

2009-06-05T09:48:00.007+08:00

of course ill wake up late, duh i came home half and hour past midnight yesterday. I woke up at ten in the morning and that was way too early. it was like waking up for subuh. i have evolved to be a vampire, the sunlight and me are no longer friends. i sleep when everyone is awake and vice versa. my body clock is fucked.

So, i took the cab i was too lazy to wait for bus 185to arrive, flagging is much easier, and faster. I try not to sound lazy when i was tutoring. because as a tutor, you need to set a good example so that good students will follow. I am a role model for many young girls (haha ya right motherfucker). So after tuition as promised, I met bfffl at bukit batok and wan was there too, we enrol to chiang hua yi together, we had our PAssion card so its like cheaper loh (loh lah leh i wonder who started the singlish) duh the answer is so bloody obvious.

Anyway, (which way?)
Anyway, the two sent me to work; all the way to orchard. they rock my world. they just do. oh before that, I bump my left thigh at the side of the busstop seat. fuck it hurts like a bitch man and the only thing they did was laugh at my face, hahaha actually it was funny. it's ~~blackblue~~ blueblack now okay!
We took bus 190 i love this bus because its so fast to reach orchard.

So sixty dollars was spent at the course, then I spend another eleven on my tutee's overdued belated birthday present- i got her a book, everyone should read there are so many beautiful stories we should know of, because life's so short, we have to learn from other people's experience.

And at 6pm Im off to work AND GUESS FUCKING WHAT.
I forgot my locker key. WHAT THE FUCK. and the best part, among all the lockers, they dont have the spare key to my locker. only my locker. how fucked was that, like this day was made for me so i'd put a fucking lanyard over my neck with my locker key hanging so i wont forget again.

the fucking stupid old person who wore specs, im sorry i have to call you stupid but the options you gave me were ridiculous! a) GO HOME (she have no fucking idea how far my house is to orchard) or b) BREAK OPEN THE LOCKER (but i have to pay thirty bucks). i wont do both. i was already preparing myself to call kris. and finally another lady who appear to be smarter, suggested I used THE uniform. DUH from the start she should have given me.

and BTW, she knows my name. I'm like nobody, so if somebody who dont really talk to me, who's up there at that office to know my name, like wow, did I come to late often that I am being mention, or i am good at what im doing or i give my hundred percent when i am doing my work or being as professional as possible. haha okayokay enough. so i started at six pm all the way to ten pm. it was fucking buzy, i had no time to reply to bfffl, to kris, to kiki(who msged from australia), to NH and miss calls- i didnt even have the time to feel the vibrations thats how fucking buzy it was. and by the time it was already time to go home, my handphone was already FLAT.

but as always, kris was there. credits for that la but he never even offer his chilled apple tea so i had to snatch it from him. i was so f tired. but i was complete. i did my job and i met two important people in my life today. 2 in 1.
i had supper and complain about how long my day was and went home before one am. i was too tired.
and by the way, I have finished reading my book. DOROTHY KOOMSON. you are brilliant.

S,signing off.
i told you it was a very very very super deduper long day i had today.

and stop counting how many fuck i wrote today.

doll domination

2009-06-04T09:00:00.006+08:00

of course ill be watching the pussy cat doll's concert. duh and its on a thursday night and this time round my off day was spent fruitfully and pleasurably. we dine at fishco and being the bestest bfffl she said lets have it at jurong point, which was just a stone's throw away from my house. (i like to use this phrase especially during composition writing because literally my school was always usually a stone's throw away my house.)

Anyway, as usual i am always seated at the very same very spot, that two seater where i will always sit facing the kitchen. but today instead of just one, there were two good looking boys serving us. okok enough about boys, at least for today. So after dinner, we hop on to my white BMW, (hahaha okay i sometimes forget to differentiate dreams from reality), we took the mass rapid transport to meet Jah which was bfffl's friend. I was too excited so the whole trip to our destination PCD was already dominating my ears. lucky for us Jah had a camera, SONY camera. i dont know SONY just sounds cool and reliable and expensive and posh. (i dont have a camera but i soon will i promised myself i will).

So, when we reached Kallang my first instinct was DUH TAKE THE CAB LAH, but because i thought all of us had spent 101 bucks on the tickets we should try to save up even a few cents to make up for the hole in our pocket.
They walked very fast because they are tall people. I am only five feet so I could only go so far at a given amount of time. but the bus took longer than it should, eventually, we took the cab. we were already five minutes late, but it was okay because i told NICOLE we will be late. In the cab, already excited as we were back in jurong, bfffl had to ask the cab driver the same never ending question "uncle, boys and girls can be best friend or not? " lina oh lina. and as every most guys would answer " of course why not". I was already laughing so hard because all of us were bombating him with questions and one thing was clear, he said " you need to be able to draw a line between friends and lovers" and that friends will last longer than lovers. I SO AGREE.

After all that happening cramped before our concert, we finally arrived, making our entrance noticeable as possible, but of course it was not, who were we, we were just small little girls (okay fine I was the small little girl) watching ~~six~~ ~~five~~ four fucking hot musicians (i prefer to call them that) perform. LIVE in front of our small pair of eyes (okay fine MY small pair of eyes).

As already negotiated, NICOLE and her dolls start the conert at about 8.45pm, so we were on time after all! I had fun. Europhia. Shouting, Clapping, Cheering, Singing, Dancing, Clapping somemore, Shaking my ass, Shouting even louder yeah okay that was what I did the whole night. I had fun (I just had to repeat those three words, hehe).

I had fun.

Model Jamie Teo paid at my counter today

2009-06-03T01:10:00.003+08:00

happy birthday ismadi !

i think someone quit their job or got really really sick and had to stop working cuz` i got more job assignments next week and its full shift! but since its at de customer service counter with nice people, im not gonna complain so much.

So, being here for two days in a row, now you can really differentiate those who actually have that classy aura, the way they carry themselves with optimism. When you look at them, you feel light because eventhough you know they are superior than you, they dont really show it and that they respect you as a colleague and as a person.

cheers`

enjoy the GSS everyone !

2009-05-31T02:08:00.001+08:00

hello, kau lagi ape. aku lagi kerje uh. what else will i be doing. i dont have a f life.

thank you for wasting my off day.

2009-05-30T23:10:00.010+08:00

This is what I have to say:

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.Walk beside me and be my friend."

if not ill just fucking walk away...

LJ's last day.

2009-05-29T14:52:00.002+08:00

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad.

National Service is taking all your friends away from you!

And LJ's a really good friend minus his overwhelming racism and his annoying favourite phrase, "zhen de ma, si bu si, hen cute wor". but nothing can be compared to the times we had supper together after work and all the silly boy talks we had in between work. Now I got no one to switch my weekend shift with. He was the one who introduced me to Mango.
Life in mango's not gonna be the same anymore. Pffff! :(
*

That same day after work I met H to watch

Night At The Museum 2 and catch the midnight slot. 2 out of 5 stars.

cheers`

take a look in the mirror, your beautiful.

2009-05-28T22:34:00.006+08:00

Your happiess is at stake in every difficult decision you must make about what kind of person you will be: honest of deceitful, responsible or unreliable, brave or cowardly, kind or cruel. Your talents have little to do with it. Your looks don't matter at all. You don't need to be good at sports. You don't need to be popular with other kids. You need not be smarter than others. Those things are nice and useful and pleasing. But they won't by themselves make you happy. Looks change. People for no good reason can sometimes treat us unfairly, and friends come and go as our lives takes us to new schools, different jobs and faraway places.

cheers`

convertible shit

2009-05-27T02:44:00.002+08:00

tua is funny. K was helping FB with his ~~black~~ bike. then we ride on FB's mum's convertible and this is how my hey-you-stop-bragging-mf* face look like.

cheers`

lucky im in love with my best friend and the beancurd.

2009-05-26T00:49:00.003+08:00

H accompanied me after work to have some beancurd because aku tengah merajuk and sulking the entire of yesterday i dont know why.

http://www.thelocalking.com/singapore/eat--drink/rochor-bean-curd.html

papa when will you ever be proud of me?

2009-05-25T16:58:00.011+08:00

that word is my enemy.

i like what we are having. i dont have to call you but you always seem to be there.

2009-05-22T23:59:00.001+08:00

cheers`

overnight at bfffl's

2009-05-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

we watched the american idol together until we slept together.........

my very own kris allen

2009-05-20T00:22:00.007+08:00

Karaoke with the usual people. Cashbox Studio @ 2 Havelock Road

after that, dinner @ al-majlis. me have membership card!

http://www.streetdirectory.com/travel_guide/singapore/nightlife/587/arabian_nights.php

and after that we had seesha at nasrin.

H said the seesha there had the better tabacco. and yeah he was right man.

we went to H's place to catch americanIdol. He somehow looks like kris allen. bluek.

hhhaha then again, maybe not.

cheers`

Mary Chia Massage

2009-05-19T11:59:00.008+08:00

the place had a nice ambiance. and the usual free ginger tea.

blahblahblah. bottom line: lucky for me its free of charge.

http://www.marychia.com/

cheers`

financial planning

2009-05-18T23:59:00.003+08:00

happy birthday tutee ifah!

2 movies in one day

2009-05-16T05:08:00.004+08:00

we first met back in school.

N finally decided to ask me out because he happened to have two free movie passes.

thank god i was on time so he had no fucking reason to sulk.

First movie : The Uninvited

2 out of 5

the plot was totally unexpected.

but Arielle Kebbel was hot.

thanks for the movie N~

Second movie : Angels & Demons

3 out of 5

similar to the Da Vinci Code.

R said they removed the sex part, in the book it has 5 pages of intimacy.

so, reading the story is much better for this one

after that i meet K and the rest to mind's cafe.
http://www.themindcafe.com.sg/index.php

cheers`

friends are God's way of taking care of us

2009-05-15T23:59:00.004+08:00

Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say.

A person is only complete when she has a true friend to understand her, to share all her passions and sorrows with, and to stand by her throughout her life.

cheers`

éclat d'arpége

2009-05-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

I took less than ten minutes to get ready today. because I didnt want I to be waiting downstairs.

high-school-sweethearts, we were.

cheers`

Indochine: The chicken cesar salad there was to die for I swear.

2009-05-13T00:10:00.003+08:00

because we missed the JgnTegur 750 show (sorry I was late),

H took me to Indochine @ Orchard Wisma Atria !

http://www.indochine.com.sg/

cheers`

my bfffl rocks

2009-05-12T01:41:00.003+08:00

My dearest bfffl wrote me a long and sweet email.

She's the best. all in one package. :)

LINA IS MY NUMBER ONE!

cheers`

the end of mid year exams!

2009-05-11T23:58:00.004+08:00

when primary4 maths was too hard to handle. J solved all three math problem at midnight he took less than 10minutes! WAH! Good Job!

cheers`

my name is sarah. i have recently graduated from RP so not doing anything.

2009-05-10T23:37:00.003+08:00

this how life is after tertiary education. keep shaking those legs honey

cheers`